Sunday, June 26, 2011

Left-Handed Fears

I made a left-hand turn last night.
That might not seem like a big deal, but to me? It is.

Back story:
I hate driving. I was never the teenager that was excited about driving. I wanted my driver's license for the "independence" of it all, but after I figured out what was up I hated it.

So fast forward to present day. Not only do I still hate driving but I have a deep, irrational fear of making left-hand turns. I'm talking I will go out of my way to not have to make a left-hand turn; and that's saying something for this efficiency expert.

Tonight leaving the Walgreen's(seriously. Redbox? Best. Invention. Ever) I was about to do my whole "drive fifteen minutes out of the way to avoid a left-hand turn" routine when I stopped. Dead in the parking lot I stopped. Because a verse came to my mind:

For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7

Why can't I make a left-hand turn?
Because I won't do it; because I'm scared.

Why don't we get half the things we want in life?
Because we won't go for them; because we're scared.


Now, I'm a pretty bold person. If you've ever met me you know there's not a lot that I back down from. There's just not. But there have been a lot of things that I've missed out on in my life because of fear. Fear I will get hurt, fear I will hurt someone else, fear of the unknown......we all have fears. And don't tell me you're not afraid of something because I will laugh at you and then make you my project until I figure out what you're afraid of.

But we all know who fear comes from and it isn't heavenly.
It's Satan not wanting to see a good work completed in us.

Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Philippians 1:6

Now, I know I'll always struggle with fear; it's human nature. And I know that I'll always have those slightly irrational fears(roaches - I'm talking to you), but I think that reminding myself that it's all a part of His plan will help me to face my fears head on.

Even left-hand turns.

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